Thoughts from the Mattress...

Last night, like most nights, after all the pre-bedtime rituals were completed, we went to bed. I was laying there on my back, quietly staring up at the ceiling so Jessica could fall asleep. When I'm laying in bed, I generally process/think through my day & anything else that happens to be running through my head at the time. Jessica must have heard the retarded hamster stumbling around on the wheel located in my frontal lobe. She asked what I was thinking about. I informed her of the things & one particular thought that I was wrestling with. I was thinking about myself & God. I told her I was wondering about how God feel about me? I didn't want to sound callus, but I told her I knew the "generic" stuff that the Bible says, ie, He loves me, has a plan for me, & all that good stuff, but I was thinking more along the lines of like, not love. What does God like about me? What does God not like about me? Is there stuff about me that God doesn't like or am I placing human charecteristics/thought processes on God? Jessica said, "That's interesting Benny." It's nice when my wife thinks my thoughts are interesting. After discussing for a few minutes, I didn't come up with answers to my questions, but I let my wife know what I like about her. I realized that I haven't really told her that stuff in a while. I say I love you, but I think it was good for both of us that I verbalized why I like her.